FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!!!!

I've seen the UGHH SCHOOL WAS A DRAG 179 days left of it THANK GOD!!!! and I've also seen YAY!!!! TODAY WAS AN AMAZING FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!

I look at it this way and maybe people who had a bad day of school today, this might help. Today I loved seeing my friends and that is what made it a great day for me. I love learning about people and see how much they have changed, grew up, and learn more about themselves. I just find that AMAZING!!!! I love people because they seem to fascinate and how they think. If you think things are awkward well did you ever think that it is just you that is awkward? Maybe you are just awkward and you are making it awkward. Look at it differently or do something that makes it not awkward. I had my awkward moments at school today too!!!! But those little moments made me feel different yet I forget and keep on going with a BIG smile on my face and knowing that I'm going to try my best to have a GREAT day at school.

I had a moment at school where everyone seemed to be grouped and talking together while I was being a nice person and talking to this new student about our school. Try to keep the new kid some company. I felt really LEFT out of everyone's conversation and right then and there I felt like I didn't belong here. But you know what I just pushed it to the side and just looked forward to the rest of the day. The rooms were crowded with soo many students and couldn't find some room, teachers wouldnt' let me use the bathroom but you know what made my day?
Just seeing the faces of my friends. Some looked dreadful b/c it was the first day of school, some had that "fake" smile on their faces so their friends wouldn't be put down on the OMGAH TODAY WAS AN AMAZING DAY!!!!, some actually were truly happy to be at school, and some were mad at the new rules and so on. I hate seeing people who had a bad day at school b/c of thing like feeling awkward or like idk someone stole their wallet or they shoved them in a locker. If I got shoved in a locker, I prob would hate my first day of school but you know what I've never been shoved in a locker so I wouldn't really know.



So on the first day of school, I got to see my 2010 class's faces. They had all these expressions on their faces yet I was happy even though some faces were sad-ish. You know why? Because I was just GLAD to see them. For you kids out there who had a bad first day of school, just have a great one tomorrow. You have many other days to have ONE good day of school. School is for education and for me, it is to see my lovely classmates faces and talk to them. I might have a bad day here and there but for me to make it better I must make it better and see the next day as a new day and not let a bad day yesterday hold me back. Because I'm me. Just look forward to a great day and even if it is bad look forward to a great day tomorrow!!!


WOO 2ND DAY OF SCHOOL TOMORROW! HOPE IT IS GOOD!111

NOW I REALLY FEEL OLD!!!!!

So on August 15th, my friends decided to throw me a SURPRISE 16th birthday party even though my birthday was a little over a month ago. It just made me realize how fast life has gone by. I mean I remember going to freshman camp meeting a Japanese speaking WHITE boy. I was pretty scared, but I thought that was amazing. A lot of stuff happened throughout my 16 years of living so far. I mean SO MANY memories and I can't believe that in about 2 more years these friends that threw my surprise party will be going to a different school.


So I will tell you about my 16 years so far. First I was born... OBVIOUSLY!! And since this is on the web I can't say where and what day but anyways. Then I had like a million babysitters since my parents were in the restaurant business. Elementary school was kind of boring. No drama, no guys, and just pure innocence. Middle school was the killer year. My friends were AMAZING and I wish some went to my high school. Middle school was the year of teasing and same with the end of elementary. The typical Asian jokes...... YOU KNOW! Well, then we have HIGH SCHOOL!!!! My freshman year WAS BEASTLY!!!!! That was the BEST year in my life so far. Everyone seemed happy with each other and there wasn't much grouping. Of course that year I had my first boyfriend. But on top of that just hanging out with everyone with no problems was the best part. And then Sophomore year everyone kind of drifted apart and grouping and actually didn't seem to enjoy life. Kind of dead-ish, I guess you could say. I studied hard that year and luckily passed my exams. But OH MAN I wish I could go back to freshman year. My friends are still amazing but freshman year, idk, they just seemed HAPPIER. And being me I love seeing happy. I really do and hopefully senior year everyone will be happy.


This is a very bad summary of my life. But I really enjoyed it and I still will. I will have problems on the way and get sad here and there. But I really don't want to regret anything. Yet I do but OH WELL. So people who are reading this.... PLEASE enjoy your life because I've enjoyed mine and I still will. Work your butt off but have fun doing it. Make a lot friends, party hard, and relax because the ride isn't over just yet and probably not even starting. I hope everyone had a nice summer because....... to tell you the truth....... SCHOOL is about to start
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GARY WANTS ME TO BLOG!!!!!!

teehee!!!! i love you GFAN!!!! anyways!!!! So, lately I've been chilling, relaxing, you know the typical summer thing to do. Well...... summer is almost over and I CAN'T BELIEVE I WASTED SO MUCH TIME DOING NOTHING!!!! *sigh* Oh well.... it has been an amazing summer. I learned a lot about myself and realized a lot of things that was bad about me. I decided to change for the good. I became more positive. This is pretty hard to tell you the truth. Problems with friends, school work (since I'm a junior now), and just the stress with life. I went to a Buddhist conference and I had a conversation with nice guy over there. He didn't have a faith to go to when he was in trouble and I felt bad that I always did and I never really used my faith when I was in trouble. I never really liked religion because of how many complications it brings to the world. But maybe just maybe this might be a little different. Maybe I can chant everyday and maybe life might get better I really don't know. Can life get easier just by having faith in a religion? I was really happy when the adults that stayed with me said that I had a nice head on my shoulders and I was going on the right road. What is the right road anyways? I was kind of happy yet confused when they told me this. I thought I was the crazy one who didn't know WHAT THE CRAP was going on yet they said I had a good head on my shoulders. Yeah, lately I've been really happy and optimistic about how I view life but from an adult I felt happy. It feels amazing. I realized how unhappy I was and how unhappy it made people feel and making people feel unhappy was HORRIBLE. I love making people happy yet not being happy myself was making other people unhappy. I didn't realize it until one note from 2 years ago kicked me back in the butt. Well, at least I've changed for the better. So far only a few people have noticed. but I want the people I'm close to really notice and hopefully I can make them feel happier and better about themselves b/c that is what friends are for =]