teehee!!!! i love you GFAN!!!! anyways!!!! So, lately I've been chilling, relaxing, you know the typical summer thing to do. Well...... summer is almost over and I CAN'T BELIEVE I WASTED SO MUCH TIME DOING NOTHING!!!! *sigh* Oh well.... it has been an amazing summer. I learned a lot about myself and realized a lot of things that was bad about me. I decided to change for the good. I became more positive. This is pretty hard to tell you the truth. Problems with friends, school work (since I'm a junior now), and just the stress with life. I went to a Buddhist conference and I had a conversation with nice guy over there. He didn't have a faith to go to when he was in trouble and I felt bad that I always did and I never really used my faith when I was in trouble. I never really liked religion because of how many complications it brings to the world. But maybe just maybe this might be a little different. Maybe I can chant everyday and maybe life might get better I really don't know. Can life get easier just by having faith in a religion? I was really happy when the adults that stayed with me said that I had a nice head on my shoulders and I was going on the right road. What is the right road anyways? I was kind of happy yet confused when they told me this. I thought I was the crazy one who didn't know WHAT THE CRAP was going on yet they said I had a good head on my shoulders. Yeah, lately I've been really happy and optimistic about how I view life but from an adult I felt happy. It feels amazing. I realized how unhappy I was and how unhappy it made people feel and making people feel unhappy was HORRIBLE. I love making people happy yet not being happy myself was making other people unhappy. I didn't realize it until one note from 2 years ago kicked me back in the butt. Well, at least I've changed for the better. So far only a few people have noticed. but I want the people I'm close to really notice and hopefully I can make them feel happier and better about themselves b/c that is what friends are for =]
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