*sigh* I'm kind of glad all this studying stuff is over for now. Chilling with all my friends makes me feel really happy. I am enjoying what I have and not thinking about what I don't have. I'm awake at 2 am writing a blog because I can't sleep......... WOW........ I CAN'T SLEEP AFTER STAYING UP HOURS AND HOURS?!
I don't understand myself sometimes. I get super nervous when I don't need to be and end up messing up and making a fool out of myself. My body does not function how I want it to like now. I woke up to a weird dream and my phone beeping because a few people left me a text message.
I'm just sitting here being bored and thinking about what to write about and drawing a blank.
Oh I know, I saw this documentary called full of life which is based on 4th graders in Japan. I was really moved by this for some reason. I don't know if it is the fact that the teacher does so much for these kids and gives them a set of LIFE goals to reach such as becoming happy and helping others become happy or the children in general. These kids help each other out in such a caring way. All of them are not full of BS and actually admit to spreading rumors when they shouldn't have. So.. I will admit to mine.
Yea like these kids I have spread some rumors which I know I shouldn't have. The rumor probably hurt the person and I'm sorry if it did. I understand how you feel. I've also been on the receiving end by being bullied when I was in elementary and part of middle school. I hated the Asian stereotype because I never fit in it minus my skin tone , eyes, and hair.
I probably have done worse things but I don't feel like typing them out. The teacher comforted the kids when they needed it and even talked about death to 4th graders. The surprising thing is they understand most of what I do and they are 8 years younger than I am. Even through their father's death or grandparents, they still went to school with a smile on their face knowing that they have friends there to support them and help them. They still had the energy to play with each other and laugh even through all the struggles. Even I can't do that.
Well, that is all for today/last night (whatever). So maybe just maybe I can laugh and enjoy life no matter what obstacles I run into. Good night guys
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