STRESS!!

Lately, school is getting tougher. More work, more studying, and more busy work. *sigh* Again I'm supposed to be doing all these things, but I need to blog before I do. I've been really confused lately. Just with myself. School work is obvious, but what worries me is I'm confused about myself. Yeah, I thought I went through the identity thing already. But Idk have I?

I look around and see people that are truly confused about their identity LIKE ME! But others who have found their true identity. And yes, I am totally jealous. I wish I could do that. Tell everyone who I am and what describes me. Ok. I'm Japanese, and I'm 5 foot 3. I mean those things I can describe, but my character. Am I funny?trustworthy?understanding? And filling out those sheets about what describes is REALLY hard for me because I don't know. Does my character fit with what other people see? AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I wish I had a guide for life. Yet I don't even know the true meaning of life.

That totally reminds me of a book I was reading over the summer. It is about a boy who is turning 13 soon and his dad had passed away, but he left him a gift which had the meaning of life in it. These experiences you go through every day truly help find the meaning of life. I've learned some things that make up the meaning of life. Yet I don't fully know it. Today, I've learned that I can get mad REALLY REALLY easily, which is bad to me............and hopefully that will make me a better person or at least the ideal person that I want to be.

So I understand how being confused feels, but is it wrong? I just feel empty inside. I see the cup of life half full yet I feel empty. well.... hopefully I can understand all this before I die

BUT FIRST I MUST FINISH MY HOMEWORK!!!!!!
good night and I love you all =D